Investing in something bigger than yourself is the main focus in episode 5 “Caroling Dusk.” Be it investing in your kids and making sure they know you, know that you will consistently be there, or investing in someone else. Trying to make it so, in the long run, you can say you did more than became a success and can show it through property or a bank account. For the true success is perhaps the people you lifted up as you were climbing to the top and reached it.
Having Someone To Lean On: Nova, Robert, Aunt Vi, Hollywood
During a Habitat for Humanity event that Nova is doing, she finds Micah right by her side again [note]She asks about Keke and it seems her and Micah are still together. [/note]. For, so it seems, he is identifying more and more with Nova’s advocacy. But, to Nova’s surprise, Robert DuBois shows up too. He even puts some work in. Which is quickly followed by a lunch date [note]In which we are told Too Sweet is thriving[/note] and a confession of liking Nova. Something which throws her off guard a bit, but she eventually returns the sentiment.
As for Aunt Vi? Well, she is trying to get that pie business started. Problem is, between Ernest’s letter and her trying to keep her hopes low, she creates a self-fulfilling prophecy. One in which, for one whole day, no matter who she talked to, she got rejected. Yet, as always, Hollywood is there to wash away the self-doubt and help Aunt Vi rebuild. He even takes a more hands-on approach and comes with her as she solicits her pies. Which, with him fixing a gentleman’s AC, it gives that man’s full attention and Aunt Vi the chance to really win him over.
You know, I didn’t realize till now how alike Nova and Aunt Vi are. They are the type always down for the family, even if there is beef, and give so much back when possible. Yet, you can see how weary it leaves them at times. For they seemingly are the type who can invest and believe in someone else so heavily, but when it comes to them? Something is shook. For while not lacking confidence, or initiative, as strong as they mentally are, emotions sometimes present a weakness. For while nothing is handed to them, I think there is this certain fear. Not of rejection but more so that maybe all their value comes from helping others. Meanwhile, there is no one who would approach them to help as they have done most of their lives.
Reaffirming Micah: Davis, Micah, Charley
With it being two weeks from the last episode, that means it has been almost 2 months since Micah was arrested. Something which, Charley feels, he still hasn’t really recovered from so she tries to get him into therapy. However, he bypasses that to be with Nova. Seeming to do something for his people. So, Charley ends up taking up the time of his session and it is kind of revealing. If only because, you learn her relationship with her mom was very much about perfection. Thus, as Nova notes, turning her into a control freak.
Yet, as we have seen, she is learning to let go. It, of course, is hard, but she is really making an effort in trying. For, in the long run, she doesn’t want the same type of relationship with Micah as she has with her mom. Hence why her focus is excellence and not perfection.
As for Davis? He is just trying to peel the layers back a bit. For with this sense he is the perfect guy, some Stephen Curry type, gone, he has to rediscover himself. Also, he has to allow Micah to see this journey and understand it. For Micah isn’t a kid anymore. He can’t just pretend daddy made a mistake and gloss over things. He has to be real, direct, and find a way to make sure the distance that has grown between him and his son isn’t permanent. Which, through a game of basketball where getting a 3 point means asking a question with an honest answer, we see the real healing begin.
What I really love about this show is that there honestly are no small players. It is a true ensemble cast and even though it is kind of large, everyone gets their due. Everyone has something they are working on, be it a task or themselves, and we get to see that journey. Hell, sometimes we feel it to the point of crying.
And while Charley’s has been a clear focus, I like how Micah’s is being handled too. For while I can’t say how Afro-centric his upbringing was, with the way Micah is talking about “helping our people,” you can see any sort of exceptionalism he had is dissipating. He seems to realize his privilege more than ever and through Nova is learning what it means to be part of a real community. Not an association of rich or affluent kids, but people who actually do something which can help another person.
Which, I gotta admit, I like seeing. For outside of The Fosters, you don’t really see a lot of genuine, non-goody two shoes, young people who are into giving back. Much less reinvesting in their community.
Now, as for Davis? Well, his journey has just begun. But like with Nova, it seems he too may find someone who may challenge him a bit. For while picking up Micah he accidentally crashes a singer named Tamar’s (Margot Bingham) moment. One in which she is highlighting the importance of Habitat for Humanity. So here is hoping that, like Darla, he grows on his own, but also can learn from his mistakes to be a better partner too.
For The Love of Blue: Ralph Angel, Blue, Darla
Despite calling Micah soft, it must be remembered that Ralph Angel isn’t all machismo. After all, he is very protective of Blue’s relationship with his doll Kenya and we sort of learn why this episode. You see while growing up, Ralph Angel was exposed to the LGBT community. Specifically the T through a friend formerly known as Antoinette, now just knows as Toine (Brian Michael). He is a trans man and back in the day, Ralph Angel looked out for him. Seemingly they even hung out. Not to the point of Toine being able to keep Ralph Angel out of trouble, but you know the man is hard headed and stubborn.
But, with that being noted, so comes Darla’s part in all this. Without a job for two weeks now, she is trying to hang on. And while it is nice Ralph Angel wants to be supportive and all that, like she said before, she needs to be able to stand on her own. Yet, currently, she is not. So, her only fallback is that she is a good mom. May not have been in the beginning, but she feels like one now.
So, with that in mind, she feels like Kenya isn’t needed anymore. For, in her head, Kenya was there as a sort of step in. Yet, Ralph Angel sees it differently. With his experience with Toine, and who knows how many other LGBT folk, he sees it as perhaps Blue’s way of expressing himself. To what end? Who knows, he is a baby. But with Darla throwing him out, it becomes a major issue. One that leads Ralph Angel to dumpster dive and, if it wasn’t for Toine, who is a cop now, he may have ended up in jail over this.
Leading to, to try to atone, Darla buying a doll and trying to make her look like Kenya. Which Ralph Angel isn’t so sure will work, but it isn’t like he is willing to risk a jail sentence over dumpster diving again. But, while times may have been hard they may be looking up. For Darla asked of Charley if maybe she could help her and Charley decides to give Darla a chance. She needs an assistant, Darla did do one year in college for that, so she has the job. Something which it should be interesting to see Ralph Angel’s full reaction to.
Unlike most shows, I don’t take Queen Sugar to just bring characters like Toine on for the sake of showing Trans people exists and then they exit. So I’m really hoping we get to hear and see more of him. If only because I’d love for a non-family, or Darla, perspective on Ralph Angel. Especially from someone who knew him before he went in.
As Blue? I honestly can’t wait to see Blue back in school again. For I sort of feel like the character is a little stunted right now. Like everyone is doing the heavy lifting in terms of laying the foundation down. Yet, at school, I feel like Ralph Angel’s fears we’ll see become realized once more. Especially if there isn’t a him for Blue in school like he was for Toine.
Lastly, with Darla, I gotta say, I don’t know if she is ready for Charley. Mainly because, be it you are her eventual sister in law/ mother to her nephew or not, she is gonna be on that ass. There won’t be placating and I feel that will be the trigger for Charley and Ralph Angel’s next fight. Much less the reveal of that will to get Charley to back off. But, who knows, lest we forget, Ralph Angel and Charley have sort of reconciled. So it maybe Darla that decides to act brand new and pull that will out of a box. For while Darla potentially may be a hard worker, as Charley said about Micah, she expects excellence. Which, the way she looked at Darla’s resume, it seems there may be potential but it hasn’t been really pushed in a while.
God did not mold you to be no peacekeeper.
[…] I’m trying to be somebody else now and it’s hard. I had a lot of years practicing being me.
Fear is a rite of passage for us […]. Question is, how do you use it to make yourself smarter and better.